Tag: mental health
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A birthday letter to Erin
Happy 9th birthday, my miracle girl. My firstborn, my heart in human form. From the moment I first held you in my arms, I knew you were special. You were the start of everything. The beginning of this incredible journey of motherhood. You are my apple, not far from my tree, and yet, entirely your…
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Time Flies When You’re Having Fun!
They say time flies when you’re having fun, but they don’t mention the whirlwind of emotions it leaves in its wake. Dan’s time here was brief, yet so full of laughter, connection, and moments that felt like home. But, because life isn’t a movie where everything ties up with a perfect bow…there were also moments…
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Two little sleeps
A month ago, this felt impossible. When we held each other in the kitchen hours before he set off for the airport, the idea of a whole month apart was too big to process, so I shrunk it down into daily tasks, school runs, editing marathons, and countdowns on the calendar. And here we are……
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The big jump
This weekend has been truly magical. Between festive outings and cosy family moments, it’s reminded me just how much joy there is to be found in the season. But if I’m being honest, Christmas also brings with it a wave of overstimulation and overwhelm. It’s not just the busyness or the constant stream of to-dos.…
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Fleeting Butterflies and Festive Moments
After what feels like the longest three days, I finally came on yesterday.. The release is such a relief. Although the physical discomfort isn’t fun, it’s so much easier to manage than the internal suffering PMDD brings. It’s isolating and frightening how low it can take you… like someone’s flipped a switch, and you’re plunged…
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Counting Down to Dan: Finding Balance
The past couple of days have felt heavy. A flatness has crept in, leaving me feeling downbeat and withdrawn. I’ve been isolating myself, giving myself the space to breathe and focus on climbing out of this funk. But I’ve also granted myself permission to just be in it. The old me would have rushed to be ready…
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Holding It Together with PVA and Hope
It’s been a while since I’ve taken the time to write and honestly the days have started to blur into one another. Lately, I’ve begun to see the cracks forming… cracks that Dan used to hold together so effortlessly. He was the gorilla glue keeping everything in place and now it’s just me… barely holding…
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Navigating the Chaos
As I approach my luteal phase, I can feel the shift happening within me… like a quiet storm brewing. For anyone unfamiliar with PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder), it’s a hormonal condition that feels like being hijacked by an alternate version of yourself. I’m not dangerous (don’t worry), but I do become wildly out of character.…
